I need to get control of u. to be productive. been in bed reading, sleeping, crying for hours for no reason, no +%%+$%% reason at all except I can not empty my body of cement and make it move.
and I have absolutely no one so it is so very lonely.
can't tell anyone but people here and even here....it's sunday people are living their lives prob. doing things and I keep trying and trying no one inside is helping so it's like tryng to make an empty shell or empty robot with no batteries function as if they are a real person.
but something hurts and hurts inside so we can not be a shell or robot either I guess.